October comes blazing in
with orange and pumpkins and bales of hay
everywhere
mums adorn porches and storefronts
and the smell of funnel cakes and
barbecue is in the air
and then suddenly the month is two-thirds gone
and the caravan of trucks move down the interstate
taking away the sights and sounds that had folks
talking and riding and laughing and screaming
with delight
ribbons are won and the quilts are folded
and put away
the cows go back to the barn
and the newly hatched chicks find their new homes
and suddenly, I’m tired
and worn out
like the leaves on the peach trees,
spent
and drifting
with the first chill that seeps into my bones
I am reminded of that October
when every moment was so very precious
and I sat by his bed and hoped–
I was still hoping in October
how could I not with the calliope music
and the lights
and the pony rides and rock walls
and the laughter he still shared when we spoke of such things
but then November came
and I knew,
I knew it would not be long
before this world would change forever
leaves would fall
as would the tears
and the days would grow shorter
and the shadows longer
and our hearts would be broken in bits
because he would leave us
and now when October is two-thirds over
and the Fair folk pack up and leave
a part of my heart goes with them
as I turn to face the
October that is left,
pregnant with sad anticipation
of all the remembering
November brings
I Might Need A Nap 