Some folks say the stars make them feel small.
That they look up and they see those stars and they start to comprehend just a little about how big the universe actually is, and then they feel very, very small.
I don’t know which parent it was who taught me to look up and make a wish on the first star I saw each night, but it’s something that I still do today. Though most of the time now the wish is a wordless sigh and more about hope than anything else.
When I got over the whole being terrified of being out at night in the dark under the stars, it had the opposite effect on me. I felt pretty important. Just me–and the stars–the lights of Heaven twinkling down. I felt–
important. Loved. As though the Creator were handing me a beautiful painting to gaze upon, all for myself.
Treasured. Related. Intertwined with All That Is.
Friday evening on our way back home from Atlanta, when we hit the “parking lot” on the roads to home, the Fella used an “app” on his phone to map us a more “traffic free” way to get where we were going.
Next thing I know we are driving through neighborhoods and subdivisions just as the world was beginning to go dark.
And then it happened.
There were the twinkling lights.
And I felt smaller than I’ve ever felt.
It wasn’t the stars.
It was the lights in the homes we passed.
Lamps in living rooms, situated on end tables with an open book in the chair next to it.
Lights on in the dining rooms with the tables all set.
Porch lights on, waiting for the last of the family to arrive home for a cozy supper and a family movie night.
Lights on upstairs where children played or teenagers read or texted or…..
small. Tee-niny, as we used to say.
There are more people in this world whom I don’t know than ones I do.
There are people who live and love and grieve and laugh and share and plan and dream and write and read and play and dance and swim and sing and cook and hate and help and jump and run and paint and…..
there are more people in this world than just me and mine.
It was when I saw the lights on in these homes–so intimate and precious–that the universe felt big to me.
All of those people with whom my path will likely never cross again?
They matter just as much as I do to the One who breathed life into me.
It’s not all about me. It’s not all about the ones I love.
There’s a whole world of hurting and love and beauty and brokenness that I’ve got no idea about.
that’s what makes me feel small.
And somewhat lost. In the chaos of this world.
I think it might be time for a walk under the stars.
Tonight I’m thankful for lights shining through the darkness, giving warmth and comfort to those on the other side of the wall. And for the reminder that we are all loved. We are all treasured. And we are all connected to each other.
Star light, star bright…..
Love to all.