These thoughts are for my children, the ones I gave birth to and the ones I didn’t…..I love you all. You give my life meaning, and I would do anything to keep you from being hurt. And yet it still happens. Don’t let it break you. More than anything, keep being your beautiful and giving selves. The world needs you. And so do I. I’m so proud of who you are.
Dear Ones,
Those fairy tales we told you,
the ones in the movies,
with the pretty dresses and beauty and rugged good looks
and weak and strong
and song
They are not real
There is no happy ending
guaranteed for any of us
There can be heartbreak with no one to make it better
There can be pain with no relief in sight
There can be getting lost with no breadcrumbs to lead you safely home
There are far more Maleficents and Ursulas
hags and witches and evil stepmothers
than there are fairy godmothers, mice who can sew, and
fairies who save their wishes for last to
reverse a curse, bless her
There are few Prince Charmings or genies or magic lamps
left to rescue you from the tower
or turn you back from a llama to whom you used to be
if that’s what you want
There are rarely happy, joyful, singing birds and dancing dogs
and fairytale wedding happy endings
Instead there is life, there is real, there is feeling it all–
the good and the sad and the joy and the hard
A transformation or rescue is not magical
or in an instant
It can take a long time
And it looks way different from a cloud of glittering smoke and pixie dust
It looks like a long drive down the coast because of one phone call
Or a purse full of just what is needed at the moment,
A message or note or a hug from someone who cares,
A sister doing what is hard because she loves
It looks like a brother holding a sister and melding their tears and pain into one
It looks like a treasured Soul picking her way across the dirt and pebbled path of a cemetery
to show up
It looks like showing up
Love
looks like showing up
And sometimes it looks like you showing up for yourself
Sometimes that’s as good as it gets
and it turns out that is just whom you needed the most
When the words of others are thrown like darts straight at your heart, again and again and again
until you feel you can’t bear it anymore
There will be no charging steed or Chinese warrior to come and take them out
To make them pay for the pain they’ve caused
It is simply evil being evil and sometimes
there are no consequences for evil
and you are left to wonder why
The real magic comes when you let it go, walk away, and say no more to the darkness
turn toward the light
It is there
in the people who raised you, those who are here and those who are on the other side of the veil
watching, nodding, knowing
you are rising above all the pain and ugliness and above your own desires
to make.someone.pay
There is magic and beauty in the friends who love fiercely and stand beside you,
in front, and all around
to keep out the darkness and to protect and shield and comfort
In the end there is no The End
It is only the journey continuing through the days and nights and one day
you realize
you have found joy, a treasure, that your heart beats to a tune that is life-giving
and fills your soul even in the midst of trouble and hard and broken times
you hear laughter and you realize
it is bubbling up from inside you
In that moment of exhaling the very breath of life, laughter,
that heart-healing, soul-refreshing breath,
you realize that another moment is possible,
you can go on, and that maybe the key is you have to make you own joy and
leave behind the ones who would bring you down
with the poison apple of hatred and brokenness
Maybe that right there is the glass slipper in your life
just the right size, and it can change your life
for the better
My dear ones, there are no happy endings,
life can get messy
folks don’t always do like they should
but you can say no to the dark
and make your own joy
Never let the Evil blow out your light
the world needs it to see all the beauty and love you share
Fairytales, schmairytales
write your own story
and make it a good one
make it real…..
love to all, here if you need me, always
me
I Might Need A Nap 